My world My life

There are days when despite of everything going fine, as per your plan, still you dont feel at peace. It appears that some minute but important part is missing from day to day life, which you are unable to figure out. Even the most favourite songs of yours don't please you; your favourite dessert doesn't make you happy or speaking to the best of people does not make you content. This is one such a day for me! Day when am not in my soul, even the book of my fav author doesn't appear interesting (though i wanted to read it since the day it was published). Something is wrong, terribly WROGN! This year , year 2016 has been a year of closing old ties and starting new life afresh, both on personal and professional front. Yes, i have resigned from job. Sometimes, it appears am no less than a weirdo! When am fond of something, i accept it with all the faults, even if it is breaking me from inside; and then suddenly one fine day, i despise it completely. Upto an extent that don...

Read some where, " God gives the toughest battles to the best of his soldiers " and this single line definitely was a morale boost for someone like me when i was going thru the worst.  While i was going thru a constant battle between love and self respect; battle between social stigma and individual space; between being selfless and selfish; or maybe between being happy and being content; this simple yet strong thought gave me strength to become selfish enough to save Self respect and individuality and stand alone, fight for the correct than succumbing to the stupid social stigma of loosing self respect in the name of being loved! It was definitely one of the most encouraging thoughts that caught my attention even in the state of despair and acute depression. And helped me to regain the lost confidence and bounce back with an impact! Today, when i look back on the journey, feel proud of myself, though still not sure how did i get through all; but yes, learnt the most imp...

We all have some wish list, and there are certain things every individual wants so much, that (s)he does every thing to make it happen, prays for it to happen , but it never happens due to unknown reasons. And at the last, when (s)he actually leaves it, everything in the universe starts conspiring to make it happen. Earlier when even tiny things were going haywire, suddenly everything becomes a cake walk. May be that's the time when Destiny had planned it. May be that was the moment, when it was meant to be.  There are instances we feel, which are the worst things that can happen to anyone in life; but as the time passes, and we get to see-through the events, we realize the same incidents were the best way things could happen.  Do we simply get luck by chance or is it all written; decided by the Destiny ?

Tomorrow, it will be an year when i stepped into this city. Can't believe its already an year ; feels like the whole year went by in the blink of an eye! How fast time flies.... We generally say, Good times fly away quickly while the bad times move at a slower pace . And since, this year passed by so quickly, shall i deduce "That was an year! " . May be yes, i can say that.  An year back, both my Angel and Pole star, had commented that this move to new city will embark a new journey of life. And they had made the perfect prediction . Definitely, this was a new era of life for which the first step was moving to this peaceful city. The new place, new people, and the new challenges restored my faith in the beauty of life; somewhere brought back the lost confidence in humanity as i started walking through the new paths. And this confidence and faith encouraged me to do a lot of things for the first time.  Learnt dancing and overcame the fear of dancing publicly.  ...

If you could talk to your younger self…  What advice would you give her about lessons you’ve learned? Was randomly surfing on internet, came across an article on women empowerment which ended in the question mentioned above.  What advice would i give to my younger self , about lessons i have learned over time ? 1. Best thing about life is , it never stops, it just keeps going on. Hence never ever think, what will happen to you or your life if someone ceases to be a part it. Nothing stops life from moving on, whether you like it or not.  2. Time heals everything, everything means everything!  No pain, no wound ever exists in this world which time can not heal. Time is the best cure. Let it heal you, cleanse you in its own way.  3. Never ever ignore your intuition.  Being a woman, rather being an intuitive human, always trust your intuitions. They will always guide you in right direction.  4. Life is a puzzle, sooner or later everything fal...

All i remember in the recent months is, working like a robot ignoring emotions, feelings, up to an extent health too. Every day starts with a random song on phone, then get ready and leaving for office, listening to music on the way, reaching office, having breakfast and then start the day at work. by the time i have a look over my watch its already lunch time; at times i forget that my body needs food too! Have lunch, take a small walk after lunch, go back to work meetings and then a tea break. Again a few meetings and back to home. Change, refresh and be seated in the balcony with headphones, feel the breeze , speak to mom have dinner , read a book and go to sleep! That's been my routine for past few weeks.  So mechanical, so into oneself, with everyday i feel am loosing the power to deal with the shit of the world or may be am saving myself from all the people around (to be understood as negativity around). It's difficult to decide which of the two things is more applicable...

"Be slow to fall into friendship; but when thou art in, continue firm and constant" - Socrates True that is!  Friendship is something which needs understanding, knowing each other inside out, being non-judgmental, reading each others minds/face; and definitely all these things need time. You can read someone only with time that too quality time spent together. Nothing else can replace this.  But once that understanding bond has developed, there is no comeback. Then even miles don't matter, nor do the days of disconnect. Whenever you talk or meet, it feels like forever.  Sometimes, a single good friend is enough for lifetime, while some lucky people, they get plenty.  As psychology states, If a friendship lasts longer than 7 years, psychologists say it will last forever. Well, for me both My Angel and Pole star have been my friends for more than 7 years now, so am glad they will be there forever for me!!! :D 

For the past few days, am dwelling on a single thought; How it feels when you have someone to lean on ?  Having someone not as a friend, but as the pillar of your life ? Someone who despite of all the miles between, is still with you and is your pillar of strength.  I do not know how it feels when you have someone on whom you can rely for life and then sleep like a log..? so who is my pillar of strength ?  or is that, i really do not have anyone whom i can call by this name? Unfortunately i do not have answer to any of these questions.  If i see people around me , inner circle ones...  undoubtedly they are the best people one can ever get in life , still i am unable to rely on them blindly. Am not saying that i do not trust them , i trust them with my life, still i do not feel that i can just lean on them and feel calm. Why is it so ?  Is it wrong with them or with me ? Guess nothing is wrong with them, as they are really beaut...

Read this poem somewhere on internet and it made its place in my heart. Every moment we spent together Has touched our lives, our souls forever The things that we shared and learned Is permanent growth that we've earned. The person that I have grown into today Did not get there by chance, no way I am who I am partly because of you And you are YOU because of me, too The changes I see and what I have learned about me are a response to how we affected our lives and what we discover in each other’s eyes. It is uncertain if we have to part or one day live together Either way, we have touched our lives forever! No matter what the future will show No matter what we are told. We are connected on such a deep levels That no one can remove that, not even the devil. Our feelings might be different a year from now But you are part of me forever somehow A part of me will always be you and a part of you will always be me. no matter what happens ,that much is cer...

Jeete hai chal Om thraambakam yajamahe Sugandhim pushhti vardhanam Uravarukamiva bandhana Mruthyo mukhshi yamaamrtaat Kehta yeh pal Khud se nikal Jeete hain chal Jeete hain chal Jeete hain chal Gham musafir thaa jaane de Dhoop aangan mein aane de Jeete hai chal Jeete hai chal Jeete hai chal Talvon ke neeche hai thandi si ik dharti Kehti hai aaja daudenge Yaadon ke baksho mein jinda si khushbu hai Kehti hai sab piche chodenge Ungliyon se kal ki raet behne de Aaj aur abhi mein khud ko rehne de Kehta yeh pal Khud se nikal Jeete hain chal Jeete hain chal Jeete hain chal.. Ek tukda haseen chakh le Ik dali zindagi rakh le Jite hain chal, Jite hai chal  Jite hain chal, Jite hai chal Hichki ruk jaane de Siski tham jaane de Is pal ki yeh guzarish hai Marna kyu jee lena Boondon ko pee lena Tere hi sapnon ki baarish hai Paaniyon ko raste tu banane de Roshni ke pichhe khud ko jaane de Kehta yeh pal Khud se nikal Jeete hai chal Jeete hai chal...

First post of the year ! Well hope everyone having a galla time and have a fantastic year ahead. I wish the same for myself too. Though no such updates on my part, but suddenly everyone has started worrying about me a lot. Sometimes i wonder, people around me are much more concerned about my life than myself. Whenever something like this happened earlier, it used to raise an alarm for me; but this time this is appearing so mundane, that it has started irking me with no proper reason. Well i have been like this, someone who doesn't like to be center of attraction, and somehow end up with the same only every time, everyplace. There was a time, when i started hating the things, and now they do not even affect me. Now, it hardly makes any difference to my day if someone is talking about me behind my back or in front of me. And the icing on the cake, i do not even acknowledge the facts and ignore. When random people do this, i do not bother, but when my near and dear ones do ...