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After two hectic weeks, I have finally got this day in which at least few hours are just mine.  Though have a lot of pending tasks on my to do list; and am a lazy body enjoying the warm winter afternoon, and with loss of words while writing. :( :( :( Two weeks, full of lots of work meetings, pampering sessions, travel, get-together, outings with crazy group of cousins, night outs, impromptu travel plans, wedding in family, first ever dance performance, exploring new places, meeting known strange people, back to workplace with a hectic schedule, inner chaos, some new developments, rumours, and the same Me! It was exhausting, definitely, at the same time, gave a new confidence-  a) First ever dance performance (Salsa Performance)  b) First ever anchoring experience c) Meeting known strangers with a new identity d) Battling the inner chaos, with the strength of smile e) Felt embarrassed while talking to My Angel (This is the most weird and stupid thing, a...

Saturday night it is, after a day full of happenings, I ended up watching this movie; which I wanted to since long but somehow missed it. Turning 30  (2011) an average Bollywood movie (don't worry, this post is not a movie review ;) but more about what it made me think); somewhere pinched me. I could totally relate to the monologues of the lead throughout the movie. Movie opens with a strong career oriented woman who is hopelessly in love with a spineless guy; who doesn't have balls to claim his love and ends up getting engaged to some other girl. Our lady , loses the guy right around her 30th birthday ; and during her break-up phase while she deals with harassment at workplace, one of her friends happens to read her random diary entries. On friend's insistence, the articles eventually shape up into a book "Turning 30". Though movie was just an average watch, but is quite inspiring one; how to deal with failures irrespective of who understands you, w...

Already a week over and here i am, sitting and loving the "me time" :) . Away from the office chaos , traffic of city and greeting random acquaintances politely (yeah i do need to answer a lot of people whom i have never met before, never seen a single pic ,  but talk frequently) . Just a blink of eye and its already 6th day of the week! Always seen people counting the days, months or years; just realised while writing down , i just count weeks. Its always been like "few weeks " for me which actually was few months ; and today its again week got over (though it is month end as well). Again a sign of being a weirdo . Both my Angel and Pole star will definitely agree on this point with me (for a change! ;)  ) . Well it's my Angel's Wedding Anniversary, 3rd one (if am not wrong) . Wish you and your sweet hubby the best of life and happiness from all the world! And please don't forget to treat me; its long overdue (for previous ones also :P ) Some tim...

It seems like ages, when I sat like this last time, just being myself, with myself, free from everything i.e. no plans in the pipeline for the day, waking up without an alarm snooze, with a cup of green tea, fav playlist on the go in background, can listen to the kids playing in the playground just below my balcony, feel the breeze in face and enjoy the sun on a winter day....! In short, calm, relaxed, happy being in my own space. Feels like this is happening for the first time since I moved to this city. Strange it is!  I was yearning for some "me time" since long; and finally I got this today, after declining three invites in a day .. :P Guess it was worth it! ;)  Coming to all the things happened in past few weeks, went for an all-girls trip (which was for sure due for almost an year!) with my besties; celebrated occasions of life with all new people (though every celebration is incomplete without My Pole star and Angel); for the first time participating in a fam...

Not the post i wanted to publish ... i mean have been thinking of writing something and post here, but could not. May be soon i will update this place. :) But happened to pen down these lines in response to Ms Indu Chibbar's post  .. and loved them after writing... Here they are Har din ek nai umeed lekar aata hai  kuch naye gham kuch nai khushiya de jata hai  agar ek gham kaafi hai zindagi bhar rulaane ke liye to ek muskan bhi kaafi hai rote ko hasaane ke liye  firk sirf itna hai  tumne jana hai ek gham kaafi hai zindagi bhar rulaane ke liye  humne jana hai ek khushi kaafi hai har gham bhoolane ke liye !  Cheers Khushi

Yes, you got it right, it is as silly and simple as asking for what do you want to have for dinner? Seems simple question, but went asked, sends chills through your spine! Appears to be the simplest one but difficult to answer  yet the most dodged one. If asked most of the people will give answer in mono-syllables and the moment it gets subjective, they start fumbling.  Well, I asked the same question to myself instead of asking to others. And the only answer i got was "I don't know " .Yeah true, i do not know what i want in life, but for sure i know what i do not want in life. What i distaste the most and what i refrain from the most. I may not be able to list my wishes, but for sure know how to list down what i do not wish for. Or rephrasing , i do not know what to wish for, but for sure i know what not to wish for even in dreams. That's why all my prayers have always been vague (and guess that's why He is also confused :P )  Coming back to square ...

For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

There are days when you feel ecstatic. There are days when you feel down, and there are days when you feel totally out of the world; not because you are on cloud nine, but coz you are numb and can't feel anything anymore. Strange, Weird, insane or outlandish behavior! Sometimes you need to feel the connection  , sometime you just connect  and sometimes you feel like a lost one in the strange world. Everyone around appears far off, when you feel suffocated; coz you are unable to express what you feel.

It's been a month i got my car, and in this month, drove for more than 700 km across Pune. Wow!! I have always loved driving, it has been my passion,  which i lost in the ups and downs of life. One more passion, which i lost in past few years was passion for writing, passion for dramatics. Remembering good old days of undergrads, when i used to visit the library only to pen down a script for an upcoming play or skit or monologue! Nostalgic i am today; when i have to develop one more script from scratch based on an idea discussed and approved with the team. Well yeah, we have an upcoming event in office on occasion of "Independence Day of India". And we as a team have decided to participate in a skit competition. And i have the responsibility to write the script for the same. So excited i am, just on the idea of writing a script for drama competition after 9 years. Still remember, the script i wrote for a friend , as she was supposed to participate in a monologue co...

New city, new people, new office, new work, new me, everything new! Phew, wondering is anything which is like the previous days? It's more than a month, since i moved to this new city - "Pune". While i was  moving here, i was neither anxious nor judgmental, but was hopeful. Had a hope that this might be a new beginning of life; a chance to create new memories, adding new dimensions and living new vision. And, can say that in a month there have been possibilities of the same.  Sometimes back, i had a chat with "my pole star" (the lady about whom i talked about in my last post  ) , regarding the new beginnings; and as always she was much more excited than what i was for the same. Just like my Cute Li'l Angel,   my pole star was equally confidant of the start of new era , and keeps on inspiring me for chasing the best. (Now on wards, this blog will have mention of one more person, "pole star" just like "Cute Li'l Angel" ) .  ...

...And Finally the D-day is about to be here. Countdown is in single digits now...soon it will be The D-Day! Am happy or sad ? I think am both happy and sad; excited and nervous; anxious and apprehensive! :| Life's completing a full circle, and may be the role of this place is over in it now. Guess, do not want the role of few people to be over in my life ever. I want them to be the same ways always..till my last breath. People, who are an integral part of me; with whom am leaving a part of myself behind, here in Gurgaon. Few days back, during one of our conversations, i told her about the crazy group of colleagues turned friends i have at work; and how am i going to miss them in my next assignment. She simply asked, "You will miss only them?" And it stroked the chord. I turned to her,and firmly told, "Yes". And she went pale. Few moments later, there was an epic line (my favorite one too), "You miss only those whom you tend to forget; and ther...

When i woke up in the morning, facebook wall , whatsapp everything was flooded with messages and forwards on Mother's day!Seeing all this, I realized i had not wished my own mom, so thought of doing the  same. Actually i was forced to do think, how bad am i as a daughter; and how unlucky my mom is to have me as daughter who doesn't even remember to wish her Mother's Day! Weirdo!  Then i called her up, and the phone call lasted for about an hour with no mention of Mother's Day or what. We had a normal conversation like we always have, she is there to pour her heart and mind; and am there, all ears to her. And i just did not feel like completing the formality of wishing her Happy Mother's Day ! It felt like, if i fulfill the formalities with er, where will i go? I even do not know if she was expecting me to wish her, all i could sense was, she was more keen in our normal talks (or rather gossips) about family, friends, future plannings, and all.  And then i discon...

Do not struggle against your thoughts; they are stronger than you are. If you want to be free of them, accept them.  - (The Valkyries, Paulo Coelho) Get up, stand up, Stand up for your rights. Get up, stand up, Don't give up the fight.” - Bob Marley Never expect. Never assume. Never ask. Never demand. Just let it be, if it's meant to be... it will happen. People will judge you by your actions, not your intentions. Difficulties in your life do not come to destroy you, but to help you realize your hidden potential and power. Let difficulties know that you too are difficult. - Dr A P J Kalam If you do not ask the answer is always a NO. "Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to  follow you...

Only thing i have learnt in life is "It keeps on moving on!" Whatever place you live in, try to settle in or keep on changing; the only constant things is "Moving on" and start the same vicious circle of events again .. Move to a new place, meet new people, make new friends, get accustomed to new environment, settle in, realize what you miss from previous times and then again figure out new and better opportunities. And the life goes on!  Read somewhere, some famous person summarized life in three words "It goes on" . Truly said, it goes on irrespective of what you think, expect, dream or feel. It will move on its own pace, pushing you also to match your pace with it! If you are able to do so, you win it, else you are left behind.  Like life never stops, like the time, it keeps on running, like the thoughts never stop, like the moments keep on flowing in and out , like the heart keeps on beating! Everything keeps on going on and never stops!  When ...