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Recently I have started reading a book " Bhagavad-gita As It Is ". Not that I have not read Gita earlier, I have been listening to it since my childhood. In those days, my grandmother used to recite it every day, and she would do it in a loud manner, stating that when I do this, the last thing would be you guys will hear at least something of it, if not the entire thing. So, every day when she would recite, she would sit at a place from where everyone could hear her. In short, we all have heard Gita mostly that way only. Folks who do not know what book am referring to can check this link .  You might be thinking why have a started reading it now? Well, I always wanted to read it (though I have read the shorter version of it earlier, this one is an elaborated one), and I was unable to finish the regular genre that I read, hence I started with something like this!  While reading, and of course have been watching similar stuff one thing I came across the most was "Gratitude...

 Ages since I visited this place. The last time I came here was when I was down with Covid, and this time, when am down with another infection! Phew!  So many things have happened in the world since then, the most recent one being India knocked out of T20 Men's World Cup! On another note, yes, a lot has happened not just in the world, but in our day-to-day lives too. I came here to clear my head, but now when am scribbling things, have nothing in my heart to write. Is it really that I have nothing to write or just a block, what they call a writer's block? It's difficult to explain. Or maybe I just need to be regular, to be in the state where words just flow.  Am almost back to domestic life, some might say, have been domesticated after 15 years. This time, definitely more mature, more vocal than ever, and at the same time close. Someone, to whom, now family tells, to go out and meet people. I have turned a corner and am a person who can live the entire day sitting in a ro...

Happy New Year!!!   What a year was 2020! Every year, we wait for the new year but seems this time, it was most awaited.  Some say, the name was 2020 but it seemed longer than a test match! So many things for the same year.  This year was for, revisiting humanity, revisiting ourselves, family bonding and evolving! Looks like, everything was getting so mechanical, that even nature decided to stop everything for a while, and gave us a chance to go back to our roots.  Okay, a whole year went by cribbing and being scared. But was this year that bad? Of course, some really bad things happened, still, there were some underlined good things too. The year 2020 was more a blessing in disguise, actually.   We all went back to our roots (at least most of us) This year, made us realise how important is surviving. Sometimes, it is more important than any achievement in life.  Spending time with family is the best thing we all have A lot of us explored the hidden ta...

Every one of us evolves every minute based on what has happened around us, and how do we react to the happenings. It is said, that this rate of evolution decreases with age, ie kids evolve much faster than the adults, which is quite visible too in terms of physical evolution. But if we compare among the adults, the rate of this evolution or some people may call it maturing, is very different from person to person.  There are people who mature much faster than others, and then there are a few who mature overnight! Comparison is something that we can't help without, and especially for people like me, who always crave for data. Hence, i will take the privilege to compare this maturity level based on my experience and observations.  We can always classify people in following broad categories : a) Who learn just by reading about strangers (ie learn by the books) b) Who learn by observing the surroundings c) Who learn only on the job ie only once they commit a mistake they will lear...

It's been ages that i wrote something (except the last post which was for my dad on the occasion of his retirement, hence am not counting it as a real post). Sometimes, i wonder, why do i write rarely? Obviously don't have an answer to this. When someone else asks the same, i just make an excuse of writer's block or scarcity of time, or office work and other priorities. As always, my angel asked the same question, that made me come back here and pen down. I don't know why she asked, nor did i answer her question. Guess she already had an answer to this. As per her, i am transitioning into a black-box, or sand-box, where things/thoughts enter, but nothing comes out. Which is true to an extent. So what am doing these days? Am reading (have taken a challenge of reading at least 35 books this calendar year, however, could finish only14 until now) dedicating 120 minutes every week to learning (not the on the job thing) sleeping for 7-8 hours of the day/night - her...

One of the most irritating things I have felt is when you are driving on an empty road, and suddenly you need to apply brakes and stop for a while. That's the moment we desperately want to get over! These days, we are at a similar place, everyone had their life going on its pace, and suddenly an invisible thing has brought the entire world to a standstill. Not just it has stopped the world, it has also inspired we humans to become humans again, feel human again, and nature has shown us our place. We always thought we are the best and the most advanced species in this world, and today, the tiniest of the creature has confined the entire humanity across the world. Till a few months back, we were busy planning our trips, and today all we do is plan our meals in the coming week or for some plan for the next meal. This tiniest of life has made us nothing in front of it. Today, we are like caged, and nature and animals are for sure laughing at us, for showing us our place. The speed...

On a summer afternoon, I was deep asleep and suddenly my phone rang. I received the call, but couldn't hear a single word. For a few seconds, I thought it was a dream. Later on, realized it was a real call. Called back only to hear that chirpy voice, that makes everything straight in my life! (okay before you start wondering whose voice is this, it was my Angel!). So it was a call from my Angel. It was one of those days when we had a meaningful conversation. A day, when we had our normal chat, as deep as our relationship. I love speaking with her, as every time we talk, it strikes a chord with my heart, and triggers some thinking. I don't know how, but she knows how to touch that thought which I have been keeping aside from acknowledging (and I do not tell her this during the discussion). She gets to know this either by a text or an email or a post here. Old habits seldom die! Surprisingly, she always knows what's bothering me, and what's in my heart, despite not...

Writing has always been something to me like the meditation is for a lot of people today. It always gave me that space, which I had longed for. A place to share a piece of my inner self without any interruption or being judged. The very thought of penning down something here, makes me feel alive again. Alas, how could i stay away from it for so long? Still, I did! Maybe I was just scared of writing down something, which should have never been written! Or maybe I was trying to escape myself! Either way, not something to be bragged of! Here i am! Finally back! Feels like coming back to home, after a long journey. And the way you feel after getting back to home, tired of roaming around, looking for that solace, I am feeling right now. After moving to this city of dreams, i can say even I have started chasing the dreams! Just that my dreams are a little different than normal people. Generally, people dream of a big car, big home, amazing career or a world trip! And me, ...

This is a late post, thanks to Divya , for inspiring the writer in me to pen down my experience of the Pune city. I moved to Pune from NCR in June 2015, with a few apprehensions about the place. I had heard a lot about this city (from a few friends who stayed there), and had crossed it a couple of times while travelling by road, but had never visited. At the same time, i was excited too, as this was the first step to a new era of life! Early days of this city were full of exploring the place, culture, learning a new language and developing some habits. I tried to capture a few in one of my post  . Couple of things which i learnt about myself while i was in this city: a) I could Dance, and became a certified Salsa dancer!  (Well i can count this as an achievement of my life!, one thing which i would definitely want to have in my eulogy (if it is ever written) :P ) b) With this place, i started writing reviews on Zomato; i.e. officially became a food blogger! :) c)...

Read some where, " God gives the toughest battles to the best of his soldiers " and this single line definitely was a morale boost for someone like me when i was going thru the worst.  While i was going thru a constant battle between love and self respect; battle between social stigma and individual space; between being selfless and selfish; or maybe between being happy and being content; this simple yet strong thought gave me strength to become selfish enough to save Self respect and individuality and stand alone, fight for the correct than succumbing to the stupid social stigma of loosing self respect in the name of being loved! It was definitely one of the most encouraging thoughts that caught my attention even in the state of despair and acute depression. And helped me to regain the lost confidence and bounce back with an impact! Today, when i look back on the journey, feel proud of myself, though still not sure how did i get through all; but yes, learnt the most imp...

We all have some wish list, and there are certain things every individual wants so much, that (s)he does every thing to make it happen, prays for it to happen , but it never happens due to unknown reasons. And at the last, when (s)he actually leaves it, everything in the universe starts conspiring to make it happen. Earlier when even tiny things were going haywire, suddenly everything becomes a cake walk. May be that's the time when Destiny had planned it. May be that was the moment, when it was meant to be.  There are instances we feel, which are the worst things that can happen to anyone in life; but as the time passes, and we get to see-through the events, we realize the same incidents were the best way things could happen.  Do we simply get luck by chance or is it all written; decided by the Destiny ?

Tomorrow, it will be an year when i stepped into this city. Can't believe its already an year ; feels like the whole year went by in the blink of an eye! How fast time flies.... We generally say, Good times fly away quickly while the bad times move at a slower pace . And since, this year passed by so quickly, shall i deduce "That was an year! " . May be yes, i can say that.  An year back, both my Angel and Pole star, had commented that this move to new city will embark a new journey of life. And they had made the perfect prediction . Definitely, this was a new era of life for which the first step was moving to this peaceful city. The new place, new people, and the new challenges restored my faith in the beauty of life; somewhere brought back the lost confidence in humanity as i started walking through the new paths. And this confidence and faith encouraged me to do a lot of things for the first time.  Learnt dancing and overcame the fear of dancing publicly.  ...

"Be slow to fall into friendship; but when thou art in, continue firm and constant" - Socrates True that is!  Friendship is something which needs understanding, knowing each other inside out, being non-judgmental, reading each others minds/face; and definitely all these things need time. You can read someone only with time that too quality time spent together. Nothing else can replace this.  But once that understanding bond has developed, there is no comeback. Then even miles don't matter, nor do the days of disconnect. Whenever you talk or meet, it feels like forever.  Sometimes, a single good friend is enough for lifetime, while some lucky people, they get plenty.  As psychology states, If a friendship lasts longer than 7 years, psychologists say it will last forever. Well, for me both My Angel and Pole star have been my friends for more than 7 years now, so am glad they will be there forever for me!!! :D 

First post of the year ! Well hope everyone having a galla time and have a fantastic year ahead. I wish the same for myself too. Though no such updates on my part, but suddenly everyone has started worrying about me a lot. Sometimes i wonder, people around me are much more concerned about my life than myself. Whenever something like this happened earlier, it used to raise an alarm for me; but this time this is appearing so mundane, that it has started irking me with no proper reason. Well i have been like this, someone who doesn't like to be center of attraction, and somehow end up with the same only every time, everyplace. There was a time, when i started hating the things, and now they do not even affect me. Now, it hardly makes any difference to my day if someone is talking about me behind my back or in front of me. And the icing on the cake, i do not even acknowledge the facts and ignore. When random people do this, i do not bother, but when my near and dear ones do ...

Not the post i wanted to publish ... i mean have been thinking of writing something and post here, but could not. May be soon i will update this place. :) But happened to pen down these lines in response to Ms Indu Chibbar's post  .. and loved them after writing... Here they are Har din ek nai umeed lekar aata hai  kuch naye gham kuch nai khushiya de jata hai  agar ek gham kaafi hai zindagi bhar rulaane ke liye to ek muskan bhi kaafi hai rote ko hasaane ke liye  firk sirf itna hai  tumne jana hai ek gham kaafi hai zindagi bhar rulaane ke liye  humne jana hai ek khushi kaafi hai har gham bhoolane ke liye !  Cheers Khushi

New city, new people, new office, new work, new me, everything new! Phew, wondering is anything which is like the previous days? It's more than a month, since i moved to this new city - "Pune". While i was  moving here, i was neither anxious nor judgmental, but was hopeful. Had a hope that this might be a new beginning of life; a chance to create new memories, adding new dimensions and living new vision. And, can say that in a month there have been possibilities of the same.  Sometimes back, i had a chat with "my pole star" (the lady about whom i talked about in my last post  ) , regarding the new beginnings; and as always she was much more excited than what i was for the same. Just like my Cute Li'l Angel,   my pole star was equally confidant of the start of new era , and keeps on inspiring me for chasing the best. (Now on wards, this blog will have mention of one more person, "pole star" just like "Cute Li'l Angel" ) .  ...

...And Finally the D-day is about to be here. Countdown is in single digits now...soon it will be The D-Day! Am happy or sad ? I think am both happy and sad; excited and nervous; anxious and apprehensive! :| Life's completing a full circle, and may be the role of this place is over in it now. Guess, do not want the role of few people to be over in my life ever. I want them to be the same ways always..till my last breath. People, who are an integral part of me; with whom am leaving a part of myself behind, here in Gurgaon. Few days back, during one of our conversations, i told her about the crazy group of colleagues turned friends i have at work; and how am i going to miss them in my next assignment. She simply asked, "You will miss only them?" And it stroked the chord. I turned to her,and firmly told, "Yes". And she went pale. Few moments later, there was an epic line (my favorite one too), "You miss only those whom you tend to forget; and ther...

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Its almost over one silver jubilee since i came in to this world, over four years since i completed my studies, over one and a half year since i got married, over 3 months since am jobless; and in this duration hell lot of things have happened that have changed my notions, changed my reservations, changed me up to an extent that sometimes people refuse to recognize me, and still its changing me. Sometimes i ponder over what i wished when i was a kid, and what am i today. We all have some belief, some dreams and some habits, which may or may not be liked, which may or may not be accepted by people around us, still we follow them from the depth of our heart. May be this is what that makes us unique. We rarely give a thought to what one feels in his/her shoes, seldom feel what one feels in his/her shoes, but always crib on what other person is doing irrespective of what we are doing. Why is it so? I don't understand why people become so indifferent, insensitive to others. They just th...

Some time ago i read somewhere, " We put walls around our heart, not just to be safe from the hurt, but to find who cares enough to break them down" So true it is ....but in real world nobody will ever care enough to break them down except you yourself. As in today's world even your beloved would expect you to tell him/her instead you let him/her understand you ....as in any case first part is easier and he/she has to do less exercise ....after all itna time kiske paas hai ?? ;) Was just wondering, how mean have we become ...in today's world even parents ask return for the care and love they gave you when you were small .....as if whatever they did for their children was keeping the fact in mind ...if i brought him 500 rupee watch when he was 5 year old then he should gift me worth 50k when i will be 50!!!! Damn it man .... What i feel is , in many sense the way society grows is better in western culture rather than what we have in indian culture..... atleast there ...