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Hibernation.

There was a day when i used to follow my heart at any cost listening only to the chores of my wisdom .... and today is a day when i do all except listening to my own self.

Today am doing everything still doing nothing with my own ... in a way playing with my self. Is this right??

According to all its definately wrong, as this way am killing myself .... still am living as all others do. Am doin everything that a person does except striving for my dreams ... my wishes...my life.

Once i was asked, what comes on your priority list.... self respect or life .... today none of them is there .... am neither standing self respect nor that loved life.
I still dunn have any answer to this question, ya i have one more question .... (a question in an answer to other question wow!! ) .. is it always this way only.... or only wid me ???

Hey but that doesnt mean that i have anything against anyone, no i never had , nor will i have, its just a frame of mind ...which sometimes appears in the picture as a vague idea and then fades away.... jus like the misty smog fades away with the sunlight.....No doubt in my case sunlight is .... is my inner self .... but i think right now it has undergone a hibernation ....a state of silence, partial death...... mmm no not the partial death ......bt its a slag .....slag hr of a summer day ....wen scorching sun is the only visible thing... rest all hibernate.

Same ways should i also hibernate???

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