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...And Finally the D-day is about to be here. Countdown is in single digits now...soon it will be The D-Day! Am happy or sad ? I think am both happy and sad; excited and nervous; anxious and apprehensive! :| Life's completing a full circle, and may be the role of this place is over in it now. Guess, do not want the role of few people to be over in my life ever. I want them to be the same ways always..till my last breath. People, who are an integral part of me; with whom am leaving a part of myself behind, here in Gurgaon. Few days back, during one of our conversations, i told her about the crazy group of colleagues turned friends i have at work; and how am i going to miss them in my next assignment. She simply asked, "You will miss only them?" And it stroked the chord. I turned to her,and firmly told, "Yes". And she went pale. Few moments later, there was an epic line (my favorite one too), "You miss only those whom you tend to forget; and ther...

When i woke up in the morning, facebook wall , whatsapp everything was flooded with messages and forwards on Mother's day!Seeing all this, I realized i had not wished my own mom, so thought of doing the  same. Actually i was forced to do think, how bad am i as a daughter; and how unlucky my mom is to have me as daughter who doesn't even remember to wish her Mother's Day! Weirdo!  Then i called her up, and the phone call lasted for about an hour with no mention of Mother's Day or what. We had a normal conversation like we always have, she is there to pour her heart and mind; and am there, all ears to her. And i just did not feel like completing the formality of wishing her Happy Mother's Day ! It felt like, if i fulfill the formalities with er, where will i go? I even do not know if she was expecting me to wish her, all i could sense was, she was more keen in our normal talks (or rather gossips) about family, friends, future plannings, and all.  And then i discon...

Do not struggle against your thoughts; they are stronger than you are. If you want to be free of them, accept them.  - (The Valkyries, Paulo Coelho) Get up, stand up, Stand up for your rights. Get up, stand up, Don't give up the fight.” - Bob Marley Never expect. Never assume. Never ask. Never demand. Just let it be, if it's meant to be... it will happen. People will judge you by your actions, not your intentions. Difficulties in your life do not come to destroy you, but to help you realize your hidden potential and power. Let difficulties know that you too are difficult. - Dr A P J Kalam If you do not ask the answer is always a NO. "Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to  follow you...

Only thing i have learnt in life is "It keeps on moving on!" Whatever place you live in, try to settle in or keep on changing; the only constant things is "Moving on" and start the same vicious circle of events again .. Move to a new place, meet new people, make new friends, get accustomed to new environment, settle in, realize what you miss from previous times and then again figure out new and better opportunities. And the life goes on!  Read somewhere, some famous person summarized life in three words "It goes on" . Truly said, it goes on irrespective of what you think, expect, dream or feel. It will move on its own pace, pushing you also to match your pace with it! If you are able to do so, you win it, else you are left behind.  Like life never stops, like the time, it keeps on running, like the thoughts never stop, like the moments keep on flowing in and out , like the heart keeps on beating! Everything keeps on going on and never stops!  When ...

A new song on playlist these days... Ek din kabhi jo khud ko taraashe Meri nazar se tu zara, haaye re  Aankhon se teri kya kya chhupa hai Tujhko dikhaaun main zara, haaye re Ik ankahi si daastaan daastaan Kehne lagega aaina Subhanallah... Jo ho raha hain pehli dafaa hai wallah Aisa hua, Subhanallah.. Jo ho raha hai pehli dafaa hai wallah Aisa hua Meri khamoshi se baatein chun lena Unki dori se taarifein bun lena Kal nahi thi jo aaj lagti hoon Taareef meri hai khaamakha Tohfa hai tera meri adaa Ek din kabhi jo khud ko pukaare Meri zubaan se tu zara, haaye re Tujh mein chhupi si jo shayari hai Tujhko sunaaun main zara, haay re Ye do dilon ka waasta waasta Khul ke bataaya jaaye naa  Subhanallah... Jo ho raha hai, pehli dafaa hai Wallah Aisa hua.. Subhanallah Jo ho raha hai, pehli dafaa hai Wallah Aisa hua.... You can watch it here

A year has passed, and if i look back, all i can see is planning, packing, travelling, moving, staying at a place for few days and again start the same process. It has been in a loop, like a song being played on repeat mode. Sometimes a breather; sometimes painful! There has been a time, when i wished to have a life busy like crazy; just keep on doing things, you try to strike one thing from to-do list resulting in adding up of ten new line items. Appointments, meetings, get-to-gathers, catching up with old friends, hanging out with partners, exploring new places, learning new language, deep diving new cultures, making space for new friends in your life, removing clutter/encroachments from mind and heart. All in all,  a new start , a phase. And then , there you are, being a typical Virgo, struggling somewhere deep down in your heart to accept the changes popping up now and then and the adjustments you do to make life! A word to summarize would be "Chaos" but in a...

A few days back, my cute little (oops she is no more little :P ) angel asked "How are you feeling?" The only word that came to my mind as an answer was "Empty". Strangely, i was not asked any question back. This shows up to what extent she understands me. It feels so great when you have someone in your life who understands you and makes an effort to feel what you are going through. This becomes more special, when you are an introvert. Well few friends of mine,will not agree with the fact that am an Introvert, which is (un)fortunately true. Now the icing on the cake, when you come across one more such person. I have a plethora of friends, though very few of them actually know me. Don't misunderstand it as my friend's fault, it is mine. I really feel uncomfortable when it comes to opening up, to share what i feel. Very few among the friend circle, are the ones who are a part of my inner circle. And now, there is one more addition to this small group. A n...