Sabbatical

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Today happens to be the first day of sabbatical from work. A decision which came through after so much of internal conflict. 

The day started with a weird feeling. I did not have any work emails/messages to be checked and responded. Infact, it felt even weirder, to not have access to official mailbox on phone. In last 5 years, have been so used to seeing more than 100 mails everyday when i woke up. Though as a part of smooth exit, i was out of business operations for last few weeks, but still i was able to keep an eye on what was ongoing. And today, it's not there. Guess it will take sometime to sink in!   

I have been asked one question everytime, someone got to know about my sabbatical. Be it friends, family, colleagues ..ehh ex-colleagues now, everyone had this "What's the plan now?" And i had only one answer, "No plans" or just that "Plan is to have no plans!". When i had decided to take this break, i was of the opinion that i would not be planning anything during this break. A few closed ones, were quite surprised, knowing me, they said, you would have something planned for yourself, as "not planning" doesn't come naturally to you.  So yeah, they were right. It seems absurd to not have a to-do list or anything planned. 

The question is, shall i allow myself falling into the trap of planning and executing or just go with the flow? A part of me says, just go with the flow, just go wild, do everything that i had ever thought of doing, learn all the things i always wanted to. While a part of me is a bit anxious, as i do not have any plan. 

I do have some random ideas which i might want to do during this break.. reading books would be on top, travelling, catching up with friends with whom i had lost contact, learning something new, a friend suggested go and write a book (would be fascinating :P ) and before that take some masterclasses for writing, etc. There are too many things to do, and am not sure what would be the best way to spend this time. 

Recently i went for a trip, this time with some new people (whom i had met for the first time on trip), so effectively, everything i did on the trip was to overcome some fears of mine. Would write a detailed travel blog soon (it's long due now). 

Looking forward to be more active here! 

Cheers
Khushi

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